That's exactly what I mean. They never tell you about the downsides of a romantic bond before you already form it here. Like constantly being forced to think about food all day, without having a single say in it.
Just constantly being hungry for no reason at all.
[Look, for a long time, Martin's meals consisted mostly of canned goods and ready meals, even if he's largely lost a taste for some things. They're still low effort, and most of them taste okay.]
But while she's certainly not as stuck-up as a girl of her stature is probably supposed or assumed to be, there's still a barrier that prevents her from admitting to liking something that her girlfriend devours like a dump truck. ]
[ But instead it ended up with Martin of all people? Sure, at least it's someone she knows, but after how awkward it already was to have to start all over with him, while she still has all of her memories with the previous version of him.. ]
Sorry.
It must have seemed so dumb that I started rambling about my significant other out of nowhere.
[ Ugh, now she feels so stupid! What a social faux pas! ]
[ On the one hand, that does seem like a very Martin-like thing. In fact, it stops her in her tracks for a moment - metaphorically, anyway - exactly because it's so much like the Martin she used to know. It's almost like things are back to normal again before she has to remind herself this is still the new one.
It may be why she quickly adds: ]
I guess you were always sappy like that.
[ There's definitely a little bit of tsun in that remark, because Ange actually feels very touched here. B-But who just writes that in a message and sends it?! Not Ange, not so easily!! ]
Yeah. He found me on the beach right after I got here. Can't say what a relief it was, given, you know. Everything.
[Given he should be dead - they both should be dead. Given Jon, in spite of his struggles, is still very much himself and not just some horrible Eldritch terror. He can't help but wonder how much his previous self had told Ange about what happened at home, but they had been close - he probably told her about all of it, or at least most of it.]
[ Ange may never have gotten to know Jon well at all, really, but she does know that he means a lot to Martin.
And that's enough knowledge, right? At least enough to know this is a good thing, especially with the way Martin talks about it right now. It must have been a similar relief as to when Ange found Ruby there with her in the sand when she first came out of the ocean. ]
I'm sure you've already noticed at this point, but this place can be hard to deal with all on your own.
Yeah. I noticed that too. It does make it way easier to have people around you care about. But the same could be said for home too. It can be really easy to isolate yourself, but it doesn't make things better. Not really.
Ange hesitates for quite a few moments, but then just decides to send the text. It just hits a little bit too close to Martin's words there, after all. It'd feel like lying to not admit it.
And maybe the information imbalance will become a little less awkward once more and more actually gets out there. ]
I know about the Lonely, just so you know.
Not all the details, I'm sure. But I know about it.
I just wanted to make it clear. I imagine it's the sort of thing that's a little awkward for someone else to know about when you don't know whether you've told them or not.
[ Or more than just a little, but Ange is - if nothing else - the queen of downplaying this stuff. ]
Yeah. I mean, it shows I really trusted you, right? I'm glad I had friends like that. Or, I guess, that the other me did. Got to admit, that part's still kind of hard to wrap my head around sometimes.
You get used to it pretty quickly. Take that from someone who already had to deal with that kind of stuff back home. [ At some point you just accept that there are a whole bunch of 'you's running around.
Though Ange does suppose it's a little easier that she never had to interact with anyone who knew a different her. Not really, anyway. ]
We did trust each other though.
I mean, I told you a whole lot of stuff that I don't usually talk about with other people. You were always a good listener.
Yeah, that's fair. I mean, I guess people can get used to pretty much everything if they have to. So you had this kind of thing happen at home too, huh? So it's not just a weird Trench thing. Well, I guess Trench/Deerington thing.
I'm glad we trusted each other. I'm sure we'll figure it out here too. I mean, you're already venting about your partner's taste in food to me.
[ That's a very tsun instinctive reply. Just look at those exclamation marks. Usually Ange would never use that many in a row, but when she's flustered, she just can't stop herself..
.. though she does pause for a moment, realising how that sounded, and then quickly adds: ]
I don't mind that it was you though. [ It's not just an attempt at recovering after clumsily typing that first part.
She means it. ]
Because you wouldn't be dumb and make fun of me over it.
Well, there's probably worse people you could've ended up sending this to. Hopefully this whole... stuff getting sent to the wrong person thing is just temporary, and it'll fix itself.
But yeah, of course I'm not going to make fun of you. It's probably really annoying to suddenly start thinking about things you don't really want to.
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Date: 2022-11-14 11:02 am (UTC)Just constantly being hungry for no reason at all.
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Date: 2022-11-18 11:12 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-11-20 07:31 pm (UTC)[ Guess who hasn't noticed yet that her text ended up with the wrong person.
This girl over here. ]
Do you really think I'm the sort of girl who craves pizza pockets all the time?
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Date: 2022-12-21 09:12 am (UTC)[Look, for a long time, Martin's meals consisted mostly of canned goods and ready meals, even if he's largely lost a taste for some things. They're still low effort, and most of them taste okay.]
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Date: 2022-12-23 09:37 pm (UTC)But while she's certainly not as stuck-up as a girl of her stature is probably supposed or assumed to be, there's still a barrier that prevents her from admitting to liking something that her girlfriend devours like a dump truck. ]
They're so greasy.
I mean, are you saying you like them?
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Date: 2022-12-28 03:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-12-29 06:35 pm (UTC)wait, hold on.
She blinks a few times as she reads that message before realising something. ]
Wait, who am I texting?
[ Because that answer didn't quite sound the way she expected it to. She may only slowly be realising now that it was a misfire all along.. ]
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Date: 2023-01-02 01:52 am (UTC)It's me, Martin? Is everything okay?
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Date: 2023-01-03 07:37 pm (UTC)I'm pretty sure I sent this to someone else.
[ But instead it ended up with Martin of all people? Sure, at least it's someone she knows, but after how awkward it already was to have to start all over with him, while she still has all of her memories with the previous version of him.. ]
Sorry.
It must have seemed so dumb that I started rambling about my significant other out of nowhere.
[ Ugh, now she feels so stupid! What a social faux pas! ]
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Date: 2023-01-09 02:51 am (UTC)[Is that lame? It's probably lame, especially since he barely knows her. Oh well. It's too late to take it back now.]
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Date: 2023-01-10 06:20 pm (UTC)You are?
[ On the one hand, that does seem like a very Martin-like thing. In fact, it stops her in her tracks for a moment - metaphorically, anyway - exactly because it's so much like the Martin she used to know. It's almost like things are back to normal again before she has to remind herself this is still the new one.
It may be why she quickly adds: ]
I guess you were always sappy like that.
[ There's definitely a little bit of tsun in that remark, because Ange actually feels very touched here. B-But who just writes that in a message and sends it?! Not Ange, not so easily!! ]
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Date: 2023-01-12 01:53 am (UTC)[She's right, it does make him sappy, he supposes. It's fine. He's been called a lot worse.]
Besides, some day I might need someone to complain to about Jon.
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Date: 2023-01-15 10:48 am (UTC)Thank god this is just text, so she can scream into a pillow for a quick moment before writing back. ]
You guys are here together again?
[ Yes, let's focus on that, and not on Ange's fluster. Great plan. ]
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Date: 2023-01-25 07:19 am (UTC)[Given he should be dead - they both should be dead. Given Jon, in spite of his struggles, is still very much himself and not just some horrible Eldritch terror. He can't help but wonder how much his previous self had told Ange about what happened at home, but they had been close - he probably told her about all of it, or at least most of it.]
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Date: 2023-01-27 08:02 pm (UTC)[ Ange may never have gotten to know Jon well at all, really, but she does know that he means a lot to Martin.
And that's enough knowledge, right? At least enough to know this is a good thing, especially with the way Martin talks about it right now. It must have been a similar relief as to when Ange found Ruby there with her in the sand when she first came out of the ocean. ]
I'm sure you've already noticed at this point, but this place can be hard to deal with all on your own.
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Date: 2023-01-27 10:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-01-29 07:51 pm (UTC)Ange hesitates for quite a few moments, but then just decides to send the text. It just hits a little bit too close to Martin's words there, after all. It'd feel like lying to not admit it.
And maybe the information imbalance will become a little less awkward once more and more actually gets out there. ]
I know about the Lonely, just so you know.
Not all the details, I'm sure. But I know about it.
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Date: 2023-01-30 12:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-01-31 06:14 pm (UTC)[ Or more than just a little, but Ange is - if nothing else - the queen of downplaying this stuff. ]
We kind of bonded over that stuff before.
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Date: 2023-02-04 08:28 pm (UTC)It's probably good I told you, though. About the Lonely.
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Date: 2023-02-06 06:42 pm (UTC)[ It's not like she can't think of a few reasons why, but-- ]
Why?
[ --maybe she wants to hear it from him instead. ]
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Date: 2023-02-10 03:15 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-02-10 08:50 pm (UTC)Though Ange does suppose it's a little easier that she never had to interact with anyone who knew a different her. Not really, anyway. ]
We did trust each other though.
I mean, I told you a whole lot of stuff that I don't usually talk about with other people. You were always a good listener.
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Date: 2023-02-17 06:08 am (UTC)I'm glad we trusted each other. I'm sure we'll figure it out here too. I mean, you're already venting about your partner's taste in food to me.
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Date: 2023-02-19 01:21 pm (UTC)[ That's a very
tsuninstinctive reply. Just look at those exclamation marks. Usually Ange would never use that many in a row, but when she's flustered, she just can't stop herself.... though she does pause for a moment, realising how that sounded, and then quickly adds: ]
I don't mind that it was you though. [ It's not just an attempt at recovering after clumsily typing that first part.
She means it. ]
Because you wouldn't be dumb and make fun of me over it.
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Date: 2023-02-27 12:15 am (UTC)But yeah, of course I'm not going to make fun of you. It's probably really annoying to suddenly start thinking about things you don't really want to.